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"planted and built up in Jesus Christ, firm in the faith" (Col 2:7) theme for the world youth day celebrated every year that falls on Palm Sunday... and as the youth leader in the parish, kami menyahut panggilan itu untuk gathered all the youths in the parish to celebrate them as young people.. as the gift of the Church.. but for me personally more in appreciating them so that they may feel the heart of belonging... as for me, this gathering help me to see the face of Jesus in them... i reaaly feel touched after seeing all the pic taken (courtesy to Mr Hermes for the pic)... i can say that i love them.. belia-belia ini seperti kain putih yang perlu dilukis warnanya... enjoy the pic!

our main speaker.. Seminarian Jeffrey Gumu,deacon to be.. lets continue to pray for him!!

using rocks to make the cross stand...

Group Sharing....

interaction

 

 their faces... can you see Jesus in them???

their ownself

their naturall looks

the smiless

i was browsing movie on the Passion of the Christ  for my material for for youth program this Palm Sunday. and i found this video that touch me soo deep!!. is there any human being on this earth now punished, beaten and crucified like Jesus?? is there any??????? He is beaten and forced to carry the cross, the cross that belongs to us! but yet, He still said to the people, "bless them Father for they do not know what they have done"... is there anyone who dare to say this even when people let us down, when our own friend hurt us.. betray us?? even my self, its hard to forgive. yeah we can easily said that i forgive you, but deep in our heart its will leave scars and we might not forget the pain..and i am the one should crucified on that crosss!!! He died because of my sins! But my Jesus never fail us...  i admire Him soooo damn much.. watching this simple video taught me that there are no worldly love can give me such love... Worldly love failed me... hurts me.... and dissapoint me.. but Your love assure me, comfort me, heal me, strengthen me and above all gives me joy!!!

SInGlE

hmmm... how am i gonna start... i start my day very hard..last night was a long long night for me... as today is the Ash Wednesday.. i feel bad... reaalyy bad... how stupid i am to defend this 3 years relationship.. feel so stupid to say the word 'PLEASE'.. but, i know, he is not meant to me after all... he had been so good..caring and loving... but at the same time he felt forced and scared of me.. yup..i admit it that is not love. love is when u sincerely wan to care and love sum1... not by force, not by you have to... so, now, i have to setel down..going back to 0... its hard for sure... everythg i do, everythg i see remind me of him.. i take my hp, remind me of him... eveythg~~ remind me of him... pendek kata, too many memoriess being wif him.... its like u are getting divorced letter from ur hubby... its more than painfull... its better for me to get stab than dealing with this..... hmmm.... wat so ever... i'll try to b gud.. be gentle wif him... if he thing breaking up is the best way, what choice do i have? i'm single anyway once he treated me like dis...  i'm still young..24 years old... i just hope that i can find sumone that can love and care for me without forced.... i know that God is not that cruel.. i know He is not bad.... He is sooo pure in love... i'm the one who blind.... and stupid somemore... mayb this is the point or a msg to me from Him that i should come back to Him.. trust Him more than human being on earth... Love myself more than anyone else... He provide pure love and never leave me alone.. He is there for me.. even i left Him for another guy, he never find someone to replace my place.. i always have place in Him... and i m so sure that my jodoh is not here yet... so, i have to b strong bcoz God knows that i am strong... i believe He will send me an angel to comfort me...
right now, i just need motivation to go tru lyf.. i just need companion... this is the times i nid my friendsss..my gila2 friends who make me laugh.... and  now i dun have curfew somemore!! hahahha...there are no 11pm ordy.. i can do and sleep whenever i like... it will b hard at the beginning when u ussed to do that every night for 3 years kan... wahh..i just cant imagine how my lyfe will change after this.... will totally change!!!! OMG!!!!

-to be continue-

I'm not strong enough dealing with this.. i really need companion who dont ask for what is happening but being there for me. just being there is more than enough.. rather than keep asking for what is happening and after that act like nothg happen..

'Berserahlah kepada Juruselamat, yang akan menyembuhkan deritamu' this verse motivate me to move on...no matter what lyfe may gives and bring to me.. 'Kalo suda tiba masa dia kita mau kahwin, kahwin juga kita tu' - by Fr. Michael Modoit.. His homily during my frends Dean and Tenten (Suzanne) wedding day today. Yes! each and everyone of us have our own time.. God is not cruel.. He is the God of LOVE, he Love us and prepare for us the best that he have. I dont deny at this age of mine, entering 24 years old, i'm dreaming of a special guy in my life..getting engage and getting bz wif marriage...imagine the wedding gowns, wedding rings, wedding decorations! who dont isnt it?? but am i prepared enuf to get into this phase of lyfe? financially? physically? mentally? of coz im jelos wif my frends of my age and even younger than me getting engage and married.. but getting married is a lifetime vow to take! and its not simply a vow, it is a vow we will live until the end of our lyfe.  i remember reading a note of my friend Aline Lim on this. ' I am not looking for someone to un-single me'. Yes! thats what i mean! its a lifetime vow!  and i am now looking for sum1 who really can take me, can carry me, can save me in my times of sickness, happiness, joy, sorrows, dissapointments and the one who are patient wif all my weakneses.. i know i'm quite choosy on dis, but God said he already prepare sum1 for me... and i am made from his ribs.. so, whoever he is, i believe he will love me for who i am. and i am sooo sure that i will love him wif all my lyfe... so to all of my friends who are married, getting married and is wif sum1 special, i pray for your happines and understanding in your relationship. 'Understanding makes the relationship united' - Fr. M. Modoit.. i believe you are happy too right? some foto to share.. more will come!!

Ms Suzanne Savia Osmund before she is declared united wif his hubby, Mr. Dennis Patrick

 

                    

:: WEDDING ::

yeaahhh...i've been google-ing design of dress for my BFF wedding day this november but i cant choose wat design i want..too bad all design is nice, cute and beautiful when it fit on slim and nice body.. :( too bad im in fat categories....with my belly is buncit ordy.. :(

just a simple design in front that can cover my bellies... but the top design cant cover my upper top..:( 

hmmmm..... believe in urself..reachdown inside  (singing)..... so some design i got for me to choose... somthg good for my BFF wedding... i just dont know how many times i have been bridesmaid.. hahahaha....

 is this too simple????

this can cover my upper side..but, i hv no nice body.. hmmm :(

hey! last week was very hard day for me.. being in crisis wif my love.. wahh!! nahh..tis is not the first time im playing wif the fire... but the second one! i started my journey to Bundu Tuhan Retreat Center for a seminar... hmm.. everythg seems fine and right.. but everythg change when he suddenly told me that night that he have secret to tell me.. hmmm.. we used to talk on the phone before we go to sleep... sharing what we have been tru the days.. all the joy, hurts and suffering... and ya that was when he tell me that he have secret to tell me but he is afraid that i will b mad. and on that particular time and moment i am mad ordy! :( so he have no choice than to tell me what was it.. he told me that a very generous lady who are rich and kind heart bought for him a laptop!!! yai, and i was soooooo surprised! i dun mad but im hurts.... why m i hurts?? i dont know!! what i know is that my relationship wif him is cracking.. and i mean really cracking!! cant b saved anymore.. but when i reflect back again upon it, its not becoz of the laptop but becoz of the trust and honesty put upon the relationship.. i love him sooo much.. is letting go is the best solution???  

Hey! I'm new!

hai peeps!! im new here and just getting to start my writing....and i mean writing! hahaha.. my english is not that good.. will use bahasa pasar as well... sorry if u are offended by the grammar ya! ;) its just a place to express and share something from me... i may not be active as well, but will try my best to give time to a new hobby i have here.. so, thats it for the beginning... its almost 11pm now,so its time to gayut wif my hubby! gudnyte people!!!

Love;

Gabbiey