I'm not strong enough dealing with this.. i really need companion who dont ask for what is happening but being there for me. just being there is more than enough.. rather than keep asking for what is happening and after that act like nothg happen..

'Berserahlah kepada Juruselamat, yang akan menyembuhkan deritamu' this verse motivate me to move on...no matter what lyfe may gives and bring to me.. 'Kalo suda tiba masa dia kita mau kahwin, kahwin juga kita tu' - by Fr. Michael Modoit.. His homily during my frends Dean and Tenten (Suzanne) wedding day today. Yes! each and everyone of us have our own time.. God is not cruel.. He is the God of LOVE, he Love us and prepare for us the best that he have. I dont deny at this age of mine, entering 24 years old, i'm dreaming of a special guy in my life..getting engage and getting bz wif marriage...imagine the wedding gowns, wedding rings, wedding decorations! who dont isnt it?? but am i prepared enuf to get into this phase of lyfe? financially? physically? mentally? of coz im jelos wif my frends of my age and even younger than me getting engage and married.. but getting married is a lifetime vow to take! and its not simply a vow, it is a vow we will live until the end of our lyfe.  i remember reading a note of my friend Aline Lim on this. ' I am not looking for someone to un-single me'. Yes! thats what i mean! its a lifetime vow!  and i am now looking for sum1 who really can take me, can carry me, can save me in my times of sickness, happiness, joy, sorrows, dissapointments and the one who are patient wif all my weakneses.. i know i'm quite choosy on dis, but God said he already prepare sum1 for me... and i am made from his ribs.. so, whoever he is, i believe he will love me for who i am. and i am sooo sure that i will love him wif all my lyfe... so to all of my friends who are married, getting married and is wif sum1 special, i pray for your happines and understanding in your relationship. 'Understanding makes the relationship united' - Fr. M. Modoit.. i believe you are happy too right? some foto to share.. more will come!!

Ms Suzanne Savia Osmund before she is declared united wif his hubby, Mr. Dennis Patrick

 

                    

:: WEDDING ::

yeaahhh...i've been google-ing design of dress for my BFF wedding day this november but i cant choose wat design i want..too bad all design is nice, cute and beautiful when it fit on slim and nice body.. :( too bad im in fat categories....with my belly is buncit ordy.. :(

just a simple design in front that can cover my bellies... but the top design cant cover my upper top..:( 

hmmmm..... believe in urself..reachdown inside  (singing)..... so some design i got for me to choose... somthg good for my BFF wedding... i just dont know how many times i have been bridesmaid.. hahahaha....

 is this too simple????

this can cover my upper side..but, i hv no nice body.. hmmm :(

hey! last week was very hard day for me.. being in crisis wif my love.. wahh!! nahh..tis is not the first time im playing wif the fire... but the second one! i started my journey to Bundu Tuhan Retreat Center for a seminar... hmm.. everythg seems fine and right.. but everythg change when he suddenly told me that night that he have secret to tell me.. hmmm.. we used to talk on the phone before we go to sleep... sharing what we have been tru the days.. all the joy, hurts and suffering... and ya that was when he tell me that he have secret to tell me but he is afraid that i will b mad. and on that particular time and moment i am mad ordy! :( so he have no choice than to tell me what was it.. he told me that a very generous lady who are rich and kind heart bought for him a laptop!!! yai, and i was soooooo surprised! i dun mad but im hurts.... why m i hurts?? i dont know!! what i know is that my relationship wif him is cracking.. and i mean really cracking!! cant b saved anymore.. but when i reflect back again upon it, its not becoz of the laptop but becoz of the trust and honesty put upon the relationship.. i love him sooo much.. is letting go is the best solution???  

Hey! I'm new!

hai peeps!! im new here and just getting to start my writing....and i mean writing! hahaha.. my english is not that good.. will use bahasa pasar as well... sorry if u are offended by the grammar ya! ;) its just a place to express and share something from me... i may not be active as well, but will try my best to give time to a new hobby i have here.. so, thats it for the beginning... its almost 11pm now,so its time to gayut wif my hubby! gudnyte people!!!

Love;

Gabbiey